My husband rocks! It’s over a month early but he let me open it anyway! Yay!
Hopefully i’ll take more pictures now.

I’m watching SNL. Gwen Stefani is preforming. I think i feel the chunks rising. oof

So here is the cake that I was so insane to make. Its a little bit wonky but not too bad for my first real cake.

Holy kidney infection batman!!!!!

“Goodnight baby, sleep tight my love

May God watch over you from above

Tomorrow I’m workin’ what would I do

I’d be lost and lonely if not for you

So close your eyes

We’re alright for now

I’ve spent my life travelin’

I’ve spent my life free

I could not repay all you’ve done for me

So sleep tight baby

Unfurrow your brow

And know I love you

We’re alright for now

We’re alright for now”

people sink your boat
when you cut a tragic figure
they drink their lemonade
and throw you a line

boil your problem down
to yes or no, what’s the matter?
they bomb your promenade
and this makes it shine

so you must play the comic
if they want one
and describe their moment
when they’re in one

people pass you by
passing up the chance to know you
their irregular
in the usual way

you should crack a smile
once in a while, it makes you pretty
it makes you wanna give
them a piece of your mind

but they can’t be people
not if I’m one
if i have to be like them
i’d rather be no one

couldn’t make the scene
not with all the people looking
all these connoisseurs
on guard all the time

rather spend the day
blank as hell by the window
looking out of my
stained glass eyes

Stained Glass Eyes

She was sixteen. She was a good friend and mighty entertaining. I will miss her

and had a goot time ya

Some things are bugging me today and by bugging I mean throwing me head first into a funk wherein I cant think about anything else and everything bugs me except classical music and sitting. Even sleep bugs me. How is that possible?
First up is Oprah. I always liked watching Oprah I guess you could call it a guilty pleasure. Something I never liked to admit. So here I am watching Oprah yesterday and there is this episode about Lance Armstrongs ex wife and what when wrong yada yada yada. I was like yay I always wondered what that was all about. I’m a freak I know I shouldnt care. What the previews should have said was “On todays show Oprah bashes marriage and how all girls are stupid for getting into it”. Now I know this really isn’t what the show was trying to convey but that is just the feeling I got from it. I assume what Oprah was trying to say was that so many women enter into marriages not knowing or understanding what is involved. The statistics for divorce can tell you that much. However instead of helping young women understand what is involved in a marriage the show just seemed to say “its stupid, dont do it” and “you cant be an independent woman and be married”. It saddened me to think that women all across america are going to be thinking to themselves “I want to be an independent woman so I cant get married”. But as I sat there watching this show I somehow felt stupid for getting married I cant believe it! Oprah made me feel stupid. About half way through i realized it was a such a joke. Why am I listening to a tv host? How does she have that kind of power over me? She doesnt know me she doesnt know whether or not I am smart enough to make decisions on my own. Besides people wouldn’t have been getting married for hundreds of years if it was stupid. Just one year ago I would have totally agreed with her i’d be sitting there going “you go Oprah”. I used to think that marraige was a complete joke. I now know that it was just because I wasnt with the right person. I guess all I’m trying to say is that it was a depressing show it temporarily made me feel like I wasnt a real woman by saying “I love this man and I choose to marry him”. When did the world start thinking that women aren’t mature enough to decide whether or not to get married? In my opinion it takes much more maturity to commit to someone than it does to say “no i dont want to lose my independence i cant marry you, i wont be a strong woman anymore if i do”. I can only assume since I am not married yet but I’m willing to bet that it takes much more strength to be married than it does to stay single. Just a hunch though…

The other thing that is bugging me is something i heard on the radio. I had a doctors appointment yesterday and I was rather early so I sat in the car for a few minutes and listened to the Adam Corolla Show. Its somewhat entertaining I’m usually not coherent enought that early in the morning to listen to it. So they had this guy on who owns or runs the bunny ranch which if you didnt already know is basically a legal brothel. They also had one of the girls from the bunny ranch on. They were talking about how much money the girls made and how it all worked blah blah blah. It really started to depress me I mean where did self respect go? Sure you can make $40,000 a week but at what cost? These girls must not feel a thing. The casualness with which they talked about it scared me as well. I dont really know why. I used to listen to Howared Stern everyday and that show was way worse. I’ve never been one to care about what other people do with their lives. I usually like to stay out of peoples bussiness. Perhaps it was that this woman sounded fairly intelligent and what fairly intelligent woman would want to have sex with a) someone she doesnt know and or care about and b) someone who has to pay for it? I cant quite wrap my brain around that one.

Ryan says its the mommy kicking in. I dont really see as how thats it given I am no where near being a mommy. Maybe its because i went to the temple open house four count them four times last week. I told Ryan that maybe it was just the Mormon kicking in.